Eating from a segmented Plastic Green plate- all the foods were separate-My Mother said it is impossible for me to remember that I was a few months old.
I would like to visit Egypt- See the Pyramids… :)
Lately I have noticed myself feeling a little jaded. A little bruised. I usually pride myself with my acquired ability to move forward and not dwell on things I can not change. But I often spend a lot of my time wondering why? Sometimes I ask Why to questions I know the answers are no time soon coming, yet I dwell on these questions. Wasting the time I have grown to value so highly. I guess I am just painfully human. Today I did something I haven’t done in a long time- I just blanked out. I felt guilty thinking of all the things I was neglecting to do, the plans I made today. It’s two hours later and I am awake and alert. Somewhat. Very pensive again- Back to being myself I suppose. I think mentally I just needed to unplug. Now I am just trying to slowly rewire. Re-equip myself for the second half of my journey. Close doors, resolve, reflect and motivate inspiration once more. Stagnant is no realm of reality I admire or feel comfortable in. I must evolve with change which is constant. Keep up with mental evolution. Lately I have been confused by people’s ages. It’s so apparent that some of us have accepted where we are to the point we have started to criticize where others are. Unaware that we have lost our own footing. The abyss has opened beneath us yet we focus of minutia in other’s existence. Such a lack of progression that it discourages me- But this too shall pass- So long as we feel we are- so long as we bleed we live- so long as we question we still have our faculties.
Jenowade DeCardo Lewis thinks it’s a sad state of affairs with young black people- The way we fail to see how we bring each other down and the lack of support we offer each other. I always appreciate when I meet young people who break this cycle… Race has always been foreign to me- Having only to identify as a race when I came to this country at 15 years old. What I say to those of you who feel you can gain my favor because of your race: I know for fact working consistently at my own business in it’s various stages of success is NOT a testament to me being supported by my own people- In fact it is quite the contrary. The stylistaz get it always, black or white- But in general black folks buy into what everyone knows as valuable- Brands. This ignorance stretches to the top of the ladder. Fortunately it does not affect everyone hence I would not have made it past my first two years of design… Still trying to win my people over, But this system of ignorance in consumerism existed long before me and will long after……
Today is the potential start of what you have been dreaming of. It begins with you taking that important first step. What are you waiting for? It is the best time now to try to establish yourself. If you are jobless, why not take this time to direct yourself into doing something you think you would be good at or always dreamed of doing for a career. If you only have a Bachelors why not use this time to go for your Master’s or a Trade in something you never thought you would have the time to learn about.
Every borough has resources allotted to it from the Government and there are special programs in place just for you! You just have to get up, get ready, get out, and do it! Start. Every day you can be that much closer to your goal if you just start something now. If you feel you are at the bottom then there is no place to go but up! Be encouraged- Put a smile on, it projects and you get more positive energy back (Trust me it’s true) Know that in all your struggles you do not do it alone.
